Friday, December 30, 2005
took the risk to sneak out frm the hse in the morning to go for np.its the last practice! and i have been missing out ALOT.actually it was almost success but my mum's phone alarm clock rang jus at that crucial moment!!rahh! by the time my dad got awoken by it.was expecting him to scold me or something for going for np,but he didn't.guess he was too tired and weak as he is really sick now.isn't getting any better.sighhs.
needed to down 150 in the morning to clear another part of our punishments.now its left with 100.spent this session polishing and oiling the rifles.we have music to listen to at the same time.rather.
went to meet cm next. cm: you look good in that skirt laa.pretty is all i can say.went home next.i realise there is more than one way of filling water' into your ear..instead of jus swimming where aftr it ,water gets stuck in the ear.go find it yourself.HAA.she fell aslp on my bed,she looks super cute when she sleeps.ahaha.
its been a year i have gone through the most.a lesson i have to learn future.
i really need someone to understand me.i guess no one will right on this earth.nobody.i gave my best to all those i helped.i felt for what they really have felt,i cherish their appreciation.thank you all.
except GOD up there can really feel what i feel.
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
to those who thought i drowned, let me say it this again,I DID NOT DROWN. i CAN swim. its the guy whom drowned.NOT ME.the cpr was fake. it seems real but it isn't!!! jaclyn isn't even qualified for it!!HAHA.though she learnt it before. and hell no would i not mind anyone doing cpr on me!HAHA*ego*.i was sort of scolded by mum for not saving the guy who drowned?i feel honoured somehow.
today spent the whole day at home.watched dvd 'the myth' .its a great show i must say.recommended!! then next watch channel56 .some jap show,its abt the life of a doctor.nice show.esp when they show them operating.cutting through the flesh.sometimes i wonder the job of a doctor is great or is it a gamble? cos since its between life and death. you will feel a great relieve and satisfaction after saving a life. but u will feel like a murderer if you din make it to save the casualty's life.ohwells.
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
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Sunday, December 25, 2005
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! a few more days and the new year is here. its really fast.had christmas service jus now.was in the choir so was on stage doing worship.whoots! enjoyed it to the core. the make up preparation was rather fun i find.at first was mistaken then until i told them then they got it[if u dont get it,its ok!HAA] had no clue abt applying make up ,so jus went there asked baoling to start from scratch and she did everything on my face,from foundation..blah blah.i dont trust TAN WEIWEN'S skills on styling hair!! haha. it was super weird aftr she did it,so in the end asked ben to do it. much better please.prayed and rehearse and then showtime!
going back was weird. i went home with all the stuff on face and hair. people in the public was giving stares that were freaking me out.those stares...i never forget.asked my cousin to pick me up at paya lebar station,she said if not for my shirt she wldn't have recognize me and wld have thought i was some malay boy.HAHA.rather.
back home, cousins and aunts were all at my hse.was in the limelight for awhile cos of whats on me! heh.
exchange of presents was super hilarious.my brother got a PINK MINI DRESS and he was asked to wear it on the spot. he was like so on for it,wore it..thats not the end! add on 2 oranges+handbag+a girly orange wig with a christmas hat+my mum's high heels!! then he was made to walk and act as a girl in front of ALL of us.is DARN FUNNY. grandma laughed till she got a stomachache.i was the photographer! so the evidence is all with ME! haha. looking at it, my bro got a pink dress and i got a brown shirt.its so nice pls BUT its HUGEE. rahh.still,i am glad i didn't get that dress! HAHA.
then it was time to celebrate my mum's b'day which is tmr! same as wina's .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINA!
may all your wishes come true in the years ahead!=)))
-us in make-up!. -PL ministry invovled. -wens.me
-jaclyn.zijian-my brother in that PINK DRESS!-my mum and dad!-
-cousinsss- got taken while opening some present,its a necklace laa!-
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Friday, December 23, 2005
had to wake up early cos had to meet mel.shane.ian and megan to play badminton.thought i was late but the siblings were later.haa.played till 11 then went long john to had our lunch.went home next to bathe and all. met them again at town to do some last min christmas shopping.got entertained by megan along the way.shes' super cute,and i realise i dont get irritated by her compared to how i communicate with other young kids.seriously. i find her rather fun to talk to somehow.haha.or maybe cos we were the only girls'.haha.i am really broke.cant afford to spent anymore.its the first time i ever bought gifts for frens mainly with my own money!cos normally i dont really buy but receive!haha.but now i learn my lesson.HAA.
reach home abt 8.the boy in HomeAlone3 is darn cute.though its either the 3rd or 4th time watching it but i still find the show nice.was laughing all the way.
stopsayingsorry.itisntyourfault.really.smileplease.
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
darn,my old injury is reacting again.it jus hurt so much whenever i walk.the last time it reacted was last august.i still remembered it became worse during my sec2 atc.i had to bear with it throughout the 3 days.din want to tell anyone abt it then.now its back,but thats not gonna stop me from the sports i am doing.jus gonna let it heal itself.well i am not sure if it wld.
had christmas choir rehearsal ystd.FUN. its not jus singing,there are actions too.and what we are doing can actually train my arm muscles.by the time we are done with one song.our arms can jus break any time,cos we are suppose to clap above our heads! haha. and of cos the jumping and the actions are the one that adds on the fun. one thing i cant run away frm..putting on make-up on the actual day!rahh.and they said it must be strong cos of the reflection of the light.they gonna but glitters on our hair,hate shiny stuff on my hair not even my hands.BUT ,i shant be fussy abt it cos its worshipping GOD!!whoots!punching the air and all.HAHA.
i dont want to grow up being selfless'
LORD i jus want to pray for shaun that you will give him strength and wisdom in his illness now.i pray that you would bless him in every way and lay your hands upon him and cure his pain.i commit all these into hands ,in Jesus name i pray,Amen.
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005
christmas is coming.i dont know why am i not looking forward to it.i hate the state i am in now. dad said i cant be involve in any np related activities anymore,not even the cca fair.and if the calls continue coming to persuade them to make me come for trng,he is gonna complain to the sch and the moe.sighh.why must this happen?i jus wanted to put my last show for the beginning of the year and somehw help np have a better image.they dont know how much alteration we need to do when there is shortage of manpower.they jus keep going back to the point where it isn't any use getting the highest rank. i ain't doing this to gain ranks or anything,i jus want to help bring the image and morale up.sighhs.
he said if i ever been selected for the nations ndp,he isn't gonna let me go,even if it takes how much hatred for me to hate him,it isn't gonna work.he jus kept emphasizing there isn't any significance going for parades. wth.
went for swimming again jus now.was swimming halfway then the small boy and grandfather came too.again he was learning ,and he got better!credits:ME! haha . *ego* ohwells.i am still determine to become dark=)
i realise swimming helps to make me forget whatever troubles i have in mind.
still tolerating.
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
sighh,everything jus isn't going on well.now i am banned frm the rest of the fancy drill trngs.i jus wanted to cry once my parents told me that.it isn't even affecting the other stuff i am involved.it takes only the morning and even if i haven got any trng,i will use those time to sleep.isn't it the same? ugh. i hate it. not only does it ruin my fulfillment,it affects the sqd too somehw.now i will jus have to hope and pray that they wld somehw change their minds about me going for it.
went for swimming,i wanted to get darker! so i waited for the sun to come.on and off it was there.swam up and down.then this boy and his grandfather came to swim,the boy was learning hw to swim and i soon became their example.jus continued swimming.felt rather awkward seeing them look at me swim.but at least its for good! HAHA.rather ego.then the maid came nearer and said to the boy while pointing at me: she is a good swimmer.' AHAHAAH. joke of the year pls.i cldn't swim well for nuts.but i felt compliemented.hee.went home next,and i think i have made a decision to swim every single dayy! since it really did help me get darker.HAHA.
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
at last i had the whole morning to sleep.feel so tired when i woke up,guess i was real drained out after the whole of ystd.was like out since 6plus in the morning till 12am next morning.which is today! first np then sailing then siva's b'day.i am glad i survived.
didn't intend to sail cos i wld be already half dead aftr np.jeremy wasn't there then, hu jiao lian took over for that trng.told him i will be sitting in the powerboat cos i am tired!haa.what an excuse.sat at the beginning.i enjoy sitting in there please.jus sit there enjoy the sun.HAA.opps.but soon,needed to take over fang yi's place in the laser.she cldn't upright the boat cos she sprained her hand.so took over it,din even prepare any sailing stuff with me,no gloves,burgee,shoe! sailed bare-footed.how nice. actually its easier sailing without wearing any shoe.hiking out is so much easier.gloves was the prob,giving me rope burns all the way but i still find that trng alright though it was tiring! din know we were practicing races till sop came to tell me''woah,not bad eh,4th.'' rather. at the last race was determine to get the first place.was the only laser left in the course.and lasers are suppose to be faster than bytes! its true. so i cldn't lose out. was rather a close one, me.sop and tong ray was close.abt 100m away frm the finishing line,sop capped. so left me and ray,he was laughing away at sop for capping.i din want to say anything cos if i did i will get retribution! he got his in the end like 40-50m away frm the finishing line. HAA.i won!!yayy!!=))
anyway,next went for siva's b'day.HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!=)))all of us were like singing our hearts out in the room.total madness.haha. got home at around 12 plus.drop dead once i was on bed.
today had pl gathering.then went for church x'mas party.fun please.jumping like mad at the last song. ONE WAY! whoots! jump till we were damn tired.haha.took photos.=) had a fun time there.love it.
the cell!!=)) 
me.wina.jarelyn
THE PL FAMILY!=D 
jarelyn![snow idol']HAHA. 
nelle.camy 
our tree' to sarah!=)
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
nothing much today.np took the whole morning.went home next.
- dammit,i feel fustrated.
its the whole chunk of it that hits the bullseye.IT isn't good to hit it.freak.
imreallysorry.
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
these few days has been tiring.but the most impt thing , i grew fairer.wad the! i hate it ,i hate it.I HATE IT.now that sailing doesn't really make me dark,what else? swimming?the only thing i cld think of ,kayaking.but its jus a short while,not a long term thing.ohwells.
mon had ob outing with the rest in my obsabah.thought i was one of the latest but all the guys were late laa,poor time management.tsk tsk. haha.rest of us went on with ice skating first.it became more fun when they came at last cos most of them din know how to skate!damn funny.cherie and sophia went super mad,kept pushing eboi down.it went on for quite awhile.cherie jus cant stop!she went to collect ice and stuff into a few of our backs.INCLUDING ME.and saying of her,she has this superman' pose whenever she skates.HAHA.
sim jus wldn't want to give up learning how to the backward skate.he jus stood one corner trying to get it thru the lessons at the side.so cute please.heh.
tues..had np,lots of armpower trng.sailing aftr that,all of us din sail.went to changi clubhse in the end for gym trng.arm powering AGAIN. by the time i did the equipments in there,shoulders were shivering. but that wasn't the main thing i or maybe we were afraid of,it was the sailing thing that made us panic.it was to train our stomach muscles.sop's body is rather flexible,felt myself stiff and old for that moment in front of her.haha.aftr sailing went to janelle's hse for cell.then home.was feeling super tired once i came home.
today had np.went to buy books aftr it. felt really lousy then,the word failure was on my mind.dont mind me. but really,everyone is going up and i am staying.its good they show sympathy but never cld they actually feel how i feel if they weren't in my shoes.not trying to say they are bad' people but i jus find the word failure has many definitions.
maybe i am jus thinking too much..sighhs.
the pushers'[cherie&sophia] and victim[eboi] HAHA
the boys!=p
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Sunday, December 11, 2005
HEY, take good care of yourself yes? With your so so so many school activities and all. Dont fall sick. (: Yes, so take care and God bless you! (: Love!
I.S rocks, i agree. (: Haha.
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
had np ystd,fancy drill selection.obviously weren't up to expections.had rather intensive arm power training.time for more self work-out on my arms!
aftr np went to meet up with the guitar gang,i miss them!! haven been seeing some of them for quite a while.at last got to see them!had lunch with them then back home.
muscles are aching badly now.but its a good sign.and i LOVE the feeling of having aches!call me a weirdo for that,i dont mind.=p HAA.
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
i am decomposed.
but at the rate of becoming fresh.HAA.
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Saturday, December 03, 2005
3 consecutive days of sailing.finally its over.today was jus not my day for it.had to take the full wrig cos the radial sails are all sent over to NSC for the Laser Radial Open. i miss my radial=( . din really favour the full wrig,its super heavy.wind was strong.10knots and above on and off. it has been a while i have capsized and today is D-day!! first cap was actually led by a collision.was sailing towards tong ray's direction and him towards me.guess he practically din see the obvious me and jus went right into my way,saw it but by the time i tried avoiding ,it was too late. he crashed directly to me.next his boom went past and whacked my back.to have the perfect ending,my boat capped. And his didn't.how NICE.
i just cldn't adapt myself to the full wrig.or i suppose its jus me.what went thru my mind right at that period was ...'i dont call myself a sailor'.seriously. i jus cldn't sail well for that whole freaking time.i was so far back where all seem so skilled and i am there struggling like a lifeless nut.sigh.for somehow i felt demoralised.kept asking myself whether was that what i wanted.rahh. the feeling jus sucked at that point of time.on the way back we had this 360 rule.whoever capped on the way back ,all had to do 360 till he/she uprights their boat.almost all of us capped but even the 360 we had a hard time trying to do.din want to do it.wasn't feeling too well then.by the time we got back shore,was feeling rather beat and not forgetting HUNGRY. snicker cruncher bar was on my mind ALL THE TIME.went to grab it on the way home,felt so much better aftr it..=))
6more days...
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Thursday, December 01, 2005
had sailing today.its been a while.almost or shld i say i was late.wasted my cab fare laa,the shuttle bus was jus across the road. i actually cld have been up on that shuttle bus if val din called and say to turn left aftr gng down the mrt escalator making me go to the wrong exit! VAL,u owe ME!!haha.
rushed to wrig up but in the end did not manage to go out to sea cos of the weather.so had dry draining. i think i need to really do more self work out.go to the gym! we had to stay in a hike position for a time limit.we were doing this all the while.tiring ! its all abt exercising ur stomach muscles and thigh. mainly the stomach.hopefully all these will get me abs along the way yeahh.haha.
Dearest: you are leaving in a few hours time for taiwan. gonna miss you so much!rahh. too bad cant request for you not to leave.haha.u better make sure u enjoy urself to the max there alright? play hard there!=) LOVE YOU!=D
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jaclyn doing cpr on me!! 
then she applies the VITAL step!
enjoying!
payback!=p
wee! 
mum and me in the chairlift!=)
my brother and sufyan 
NICE.
the cell!!=)) 
me.wina.jarelyn
THE PL FAMILY!=D 
jarelyn![snow idol']HAHA. 
nelle.camy 
our tree' to sarah!=)
the pushers'[cherie&sophia] and victim[eboi] HAHA
the boys!=p
part of the girls!