Friday, March 24, 2006
RODE;
Monday, March 20, 2006
its finally over! glad i survived the 5days!! day4&5 overall's position was 15th. got up one placing.at least i got 11th for race 12.=)
i was peeling so so much. everyone was staring please.went parkway macs toilet to peel the excess.val was contradicting,she ask me to peel then later said no dont peel. agree valencia?HAHA.
even one of the staff from macs was telling me how much she pitied my burn.
wasnt spared in school too.i actually ran up all the way to class,4floors.just try and you will know how tiring is it to be running with your bag+books+bottle.the whole world was staring, teachers were asking too!!and so i have to repeat the story millions and millions time.but it was a blessing in disguise i find.esp for chi period because we were all suppose to hand in chi compo given for the holiday.didnt do it. went to tell laoshi i cant hand it up and at the same time she got a shock when she saw my face,i just pointed to my face and said a few words and she spared me!haha. she's nice laa.
lunch time,stares again.my lips were hurting like mad,i cldnt eat well.ms ang was walking past ,her expression was dramatic. was asked and so the story repeats.
had chem then went home,bus stop people were looking and IN the bus this maid with a boy and girl came up the bus and the boy was sitting right in front of me.he just cldnt stop looking at me.i dont mind the stares that much but he just turn from his seat and LOOK. was feeling irritated by him.just felt to confront.
so much for being a laughing stock for today.[claims eunice]
RODE;
Saturday, March 18, 2006
finally its the last day tmr for the youth c'ships.been waiting for this day to come.its seriously tough.first day was expecting the results to be real crappy cos practically all ever since the first day my position was last last last BUT i realise i arent really aiming for the placing but i just wanted to complete the race.didnt train for quite awhile so i guess that explains my performance during the races.
day1-8-15knots
-overall position 13th
day2-10-15knots
-overall position 13th
day3- 7-15 knots
-overall position 16th
day4- 8-15knots
-overall postion [i didnt manage to see!]
day5- yet to.
well,i have deproved! still i think i did well for todays first race though i was last to complete the race.because usually i would be beaten by the lasers and bytes which actually shows how lousy i am! sometimes i just wondered why was i in the first place given the license to sail.
today i manage to stay on track with the other radials!which is good.almost got a chance to beat a tj sailor.rather wasted though.
second and third race was back to crap. wind was changing here and there the most today.
was the last boat to reach back shore. was really praying hard to be towed back.the gusts were scary,was literally thrown out to sea from the boat cos of it.felt bad to have made hazel mum and the rest to wait for me to get changed,sorry !! this reminds me of what sergin did. HAHA.i cldnt stop laughing,guess she didnt know that i could laugh so much.shant say here unless upon her approval! HAA. ITS HILARIOUS. oops.
was stared,commented by people around,they were talking abt my face!! cos its super burnt but the they actually fascinated by the shades line i have.this group of adults was talking abt it right in front of me.ohwells. i still love the line there!=D
really appreciate those who have been trying to cheer me up. i feel loved by you all!=)) i seriously cant think of a long speech or anything to thank those who helped.but just THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH.REALLY. each of you have definetly made me happier.=)))
RODE;
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Hello. (: Cheer up! (: You can do better and you WILL do better. So don't sound so sad already okay? (: I wanna see you SMILE. (: Yes? (: All the best for the rest of your competitions. (: Take lots of care, and rest more okay! (:
Im having cramps, freak. But anyway, haha, you MUST study and score okay? (:
*Promise? (:
I love you.
RODE;
Sunday, March 12, 2006
dear readers, i suppose you all know how bad and cold i am now. with that post written like i was cold than colder before.i wanted to add in many more factors into that fact i shared. guess it makes not much of a difference if i dont share it.
-i wanted to tell my friends congrats .
-i wanted to tell my friends you have done well.
-i wanted to tell my friends that i will treat them for their results.
-i wanted to tell my friends thank you.
-i wanted to tell my friends to never regard me as a good or best friend,because i dont deserve the privilege.
sounds contradicting isnt it. ask me who exactly am i, unfortunately i cant answer that beacause i cant even find it myself. i dont know who i am.
i love my friends.honestly.
RODE;
Saturday, March 11, 2006
as i expected,friday wasnt a day for me. my results just sucked like it always do.cried for awhile,it was different as previous years where i usually dont feel a thing. even retaining wasnt helping me.was told to retain again if my results continued like this for the rest of the other 3 terms.
-seetoh suying
-retainee
-failed 4 subjects
-never in her life got to have a sense of achievement
-though tries but never scores in academic
-failure in academic /sports[well,its true]
-cant see a positive future
its just part of whats the load going through my head.why? my friends are all making it,improving themselves.i hate giving such news to my parents,making them even more fustrated and depressed than ever.i hate to see them crying inside.i hate to continue the state i am in.i hate this.
this fact i have to share,there isnt anyone you will be able to find that will really truly feel when you fail something,they will just show a sign of sympathy for a moment to console your current emotion.who cares about crying out deep down for a failure.they have done well,they have pass,why would they give a damn to your results.After consoling,they practically feel happy about themselves and party out there. Its True.
ohwells.facts are facts,none can change.
youth c'ships is next week.5 days straight. 15-19mar. All the best to me.
RODE;
me.johanna
cheerleaders'[cant really see them though]
RUN THE RACE.KEEP THE FAITH.
part of the opening of the meet. 
dodsworth.chew.archer.lee[furthest]
me.celina.elaine
kim is just trying to be funny with amanda's friend
we were just bored while waiting for the lift
fangs wanted to interact with this boy but failed.
it doesnt pay to try.so we tried! x)
i was too tall.therefore,i had to bend!HAA.
sop.hazel.weekee.me[clockwise]
hazel's parents![arent they sweet?=)]
hazel's secret flying kick.poor weekee had to be the victim.HAHA.
val.weekee
i am behind,the left one.
radials marking the round.