its been 2 tiring days spending 3/4 of my time in sch.finally done with the whole funtasia thing.It was today that the event was on and my station was making play dough having a fragrant in it.we had to attend to 10 classes ,doing the same thing over and over again,getting fingers burnt because of the heating process[its only the leaders that had to go through it,not the students coming in =( ] At least the sch treated us ice cream twice and fish burger for lunch. gosh,its fattening laa but still i needed the energy for the entire day. was in sch from 7am-530pm STANDING. hardly sitting.And we had to smell the fragrant oil throughout the day,its unhealthy mann. I now see the clear line between boys and girls.No matter how rough girls can get,they never can be as nasty and michievious as boys. me,amanda,serena and fangs were kinda surprised somehow how naughty they were when we were helping the acs[b] boys.They just had to spill the flour and salt all over the table.tskk. And they were totally against acsi people.just kept complaining about them as a sch with nerds.goodness. at the end of the whole event,we were given test tube pouches' . i wanted the shoe bag please! ohwells. went home next. tired
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Friday, May 26, 2006
went with mum and dad to see my form teacher.mdm zalena actually said i could write.BUT,its just the beginning of every story of whats written.ohwells. real disppointed with my results.5th from the LAST.plus i am abloody retainee.wth.Term1 results totally suck please,pull my whole overall down.was at least satisfied to see the improvement in term2 but when i got to see my report book,i was almost in a shock state.i could have gotten a 1 for poa but because of term one's failure,i got a 4 for overall.freak please.
stayed back after it to do some planning and preparations for the math and sci funtasia. i didnt like the idea of being a leader of such stuff.it was obvious who was good at such responsibility.i cant take this role.already today,i felt so failure in getting everyone satisfied and settled.i suck.
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
its the last day of sch but i dont feel like it is somehow.the class wasnt in the mood for any lessons today. because of the music marathon audition that was needed to be presented after sch.mrs eng kept asking whats with our mood today,we all seems so dead,so quiet,so tired. yes i was,so tired.AGAIN. i was doing my poa wksheet halfway and in the midst of erasing my mistake,i fell asleep on the spot with that action in the air for a minute.How Great ehh. geog,we bargained. we said could not have lessons.actually she let us off yesterday already and we promised to listen to her for 2 full periods for today. as expected,we couldnt make it. so in the end all she wanted was 20mins of teaching and we could use her next period to go for lunch cos our lunch was taken up by clean-up. how nice please. but i got distracted by kim! she was telling me about her hot friend that used to be friends with her when she was in scgs.i think i gave her the impression that i was really interested.HAHA. the audition came,and it was a total screw up. the acoustic couldnt be heard cos we didnt manage to amp it.there were comments on the piano too and i particularly said this cos i think the comment on the piano was one i sympathize most.poor joyce! felt kind of bad for not being able to do well in the funtasia prep. seriously bad.i am really sorry people.=(
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
started off sch embarassing myself while going up class.was carrying my bag and my hands were having my file and book[notice i arent those who carry light bags], i tripped over the steps hurting my toe.but it wasnt much about the injury,its the attention i got from the sec1s while they were going down for assembly.gosh. rush down to the assembly area,people said i looked sleepy.yes i was,didnt got to sleep well for the past 2 nights.shant elaboarate.ohwells.eng periods again was free ,guess mdm zalena wasnt feeling well,5 of us could understand why.[notice its just FIVE] .HAA. she asked us to make our way to the com lab to do a research on avian flu.so whats the students temptation on getting into a com lab? go ahead wondering about the obvious possibilities.x) we still did our work OKAY. math period wasnt that bad today,maybe its because its just 1 period or i guess it was the formula stuff ms ferng was teaching.chi was dreadful,falling asleep. i THOUGHT i forgot to bring my textbook. and so she asked those who did not bring to copy 1 of the stories in the book.it was freaking long.had to stayed back to finish it up.just before leaving i realised my book was under my table hidden all along!! what the heck. kim got 4bucks from sijia for helping in completing the punishment.Lucky please. dont even have to consider about working in macs or any other places for jobs. i hoped it never made it worse.i was really missing Before so much.but it seems its becoming colder.all seemed hesitant.
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Monday, May 22, 2006
its the last week of sch, its really quick to have term2 to end so fast.gosh. the weird thing is i feel like studying whenever the exam periods are over.but the contradicting thing is i dread the lessons in my timetable.math again i cldnt take it but to slap myself awake. slaps i did to myself on and off to concentrate on what the heck ms ferng was explaining abt perfect squares[i hate that chpt,but not the formula one]. finally its harder than i could ever take ,gave one tight slap to myself,it worked but it distracted the people sitting around me.at least it did good for the people who looked so dead' too.free entertainment i call. i hope to run to the other end of the world.perserverance is what i must have.i am proving its not about it.needless to say.
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Sunday, May 21, 2006
yesterday's training i finally could call it TRAINING.i survived the byte.thank god.and i am starting to see the good stuff and not the flaws about the byte.i am appreciating it! i guess its a preferable boat for me now.yes it is. dad gave me a lift to the club and it wasnt a good at all when i entered the place.cor and val were giving a black face all the way for so long[i didnt bother how long was it,it was long enough to make me feel inferior].asked sergin what happened,she had no idea too and i guess i irritated her so much.[i am really sorry!!x( ] i was seriously wrecking my brains for what had i done to them that made them give such an expression to me,and its only to ME! i usually could be braver than this but somehow i felt so scared and afraid.i guess its because the blow i got in school.that has already made me so guilty concious about myself,and now this, i really asked myself am i really a pain in the eye for the whole day.even out at sea,i wasnt really concentrating on my upwinds,the ques just kept repeating in my freaking mind. decided not to say much.i am keeping quiet.thats it. even speaking up,i realise the lag time i have to spent in communicating with people.now that i am afraid of being such an irritant. When cor and val were giving those faces,i could tell val wasnt intentional on ignoring me.she wanted laugh laa whenever i look at her.but cor is different,SO DIFFERENT.i practically freeze whenever she walk past me,its super duper truple' scary. i felt so small,even smaller than a shrimp! after they knew i almost cried, val came over to tell me they were just playing with me. i was so frightened please!what an HOUR[i think] to have myself to suffer.
i guess its part of the meanie' club requirement to go through that test.ask val for more details. back to training,yes,we did 3 upwinds and runs.by the second and third rounds my thighs were shaking.oh yes,by the time i went back home my eyes were more tired and painful than previous trainings cos i was kind enough to loan my shades to weekee.haha. she needs it more than me anyway.=) ate jap food for dinner =DD and went home to eat apple strudel,i no need to feel fat. i AM fat.
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Monday, May 15, 2006
didnt got to sail in the end on sat training.its because of the weather. i was looking forward to it and its cos i wanted to practice the byte! now its likely i am entering the inter-sch's with that!once a week is definetly not enough,its just a couple of mths to the competition? any one could company me on a weekday to train too?i really need it.=( jeremy made us did gym training.from the hiking equipment for 3mins.the stepping thing which seemed like it was made for us to walk non-stop.i was at level6 too[same as you weekee!]now i know how tiring it can be. next went to do the different equipments that made my shoulders shivered non-stop after training.
sunday was terrible, woke up having a bad bad bad migraine.really felt like going to the hospital and ask for a jab to relieve my pain in my freaking head.it just felt like my brain was contracting non-stop.so super sorry regnan'!!made you worried so much.[happy fiddling with the words] went to grandma's house in the night since it was mother's day.i was dying next of gastric flu.cos i had improper meals.gosh. i just kept burping but the gas just wldnt come out altogether.rahh.
sch today wasnt a good start at the beginning. but ohwells.it was better i guess later in the day. i pass my math and lit! yipee! at last i got that sense of achievement.=) i am sorry to the people whom had tried raising my self -esteem but felt so fustrated cos of my stubborness towards my one way thinking.its just those times where i cant seem to find myself a way to success because i guess i still hold the saddest setback i got last year? its hard to forget.especially looking at my batch's nametag,it brings back so much. i miss bluebadge.
i dont hold the grudges,i hold the words as a reflection of my self-being. i thank you honestly for the message you have brought to me.dont worry,this isnt a humiliation message,its a message of thanks and honesty.i somehow expected such opinions,i deserved that.i felt great when i saw it.Some may think i am insane if they knew about this,but i guess i am not feeling unhappy. Its really alright for such a comment like this. Now that i am much more aware of not just myself,but the people around me too. Once again thank you.
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
dont really favour these couple of years,its been a rough ride. sad to say,it doesnt seem to end and has become part and parcel of my life.Live with it,seetoh. Was practically feeling so tired and sleepy the whole day. especially the first few periods,i was in dreamland but with my eyes open. it was math then, the graph equation was given '' 7x-xsquared=5'' did my working at the side and re wrote it as ''17x'' instead of ''7''.Gave up,and took my nalgene bottle to splash myself awake,though it was just temporary. Its the second time,the last time was during chem period.we were doing balancing equations but ended up writing people's name. I realised the handwriting was so different from my usual! So i conclude,my handwriting in lala land is much neater!!how i wish it was for real. during geog, i admitted i drooled.i seriously was tired!! havent been sleeping enough these few weeks.But amazingly i paid attention for geog in the end.It was about rivers.guess for now i am rather interested about the chpt.dont ask why.i have no idea. music presentation was okay i guess?just that the acoustic i played cldnt be heard.rahh.but the rest of the instruments were well played.Drums especially! Good job eunice! and also of course amanda[bass] and fangs[elec. guitar].Also to the singers!!eliza,kim,angeline,jasmine,adora. did i miss out any?hmm. went home next, rather weird for me though to go home earlier esp when its a day where i need not have to go to sch for the day after .heh.talked to germs for an hour on the phone in the end.practically almost the whole time she was either screaming cos of the lightning and thunder. Then the call came,ms tini told me i cldnt enter the inter-school sailing nationals.because i wasnt eligible for the A division,i was under-age.she gave me till mon to see if i still want to join the other division under byte. sighs. thats it,it isnt fulfilled.ohwells.
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Monday, May 08, 2006
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY PAULINE!!!=DDDD HAVE A GOOD YEAR AHEAD! MAY GOD BLESS YOU.
I was on time for sailing!at last. without cabbing to there using unnecessary money to go there in the quickest time.today's training was one i will rememeber perhaps for life? had another new person joining in our class.at last someone is sailing the laser with me.haha.guess he makes us feel so young after all cos i guess he is 20 ? jeremy made us sailed far out upwind[i love upwind!] and tack every 30 secs by ourselves without his whistle.my watch was giving me problems,the digits in there seemed to be fading at some angle.gosh. anyway,did that then did the run back. went through this twice.the second time ,my thighs were shaking already.how NOT fit i AM.guess the wind then we experienced once in awhile,it was about 10-12 knots i suppose.strong please!but lovely. the second time doing the run was wasted laa!!was really angry with myself.already abt 100m back to the club and i capsized.it all started with isaac capsizing.then bryan told me he capsized and he sort of laughed.the next min,it happened to me.but it wasnt a quick recovery,the daggerboard slipped out TOTALLY,now the only way was to dive under the boat to slot it in.it was tough,struggled for quite awhile in the sea,jeremy wanted to do it myself. the only thing he said was'' quickly,you are drifting towards the rocks.'' in the end,another rescue boat came to help me,the guy kept repeating to me''next time public holiday dont come out to sea.'' just kept on teasing mann.heh.he tried lifting the boat up but still it still came off whenever i tried slotting in. in the end,bryan came to help ,jeremy told me to treat him a meal.whatever man. i can conclude valencia loves taking pictures! once she saw my cam,she was ''ehh!!take picture!!'' and she poses.guess she wants to show her kids in future how ''good she looked when she was younger.OOPS.kidding.[dont be offended val!!x( ] anyway,she made a bet that if she bathes finish first,she will buy fries for us. in the end she did.thanks girl!
sch today was draggy?everyday i guess. amanda came late,at first we were thinking she's sick BUT she she wasnt.its because her parents thought it was a public holiday! so she just slept on.thats the best thing.Haha. felt so tired today and plus the itch on my sting was killing! took out my sch shoes to air the whole day in class till lunch.I DO NOT have smelly feet!x)
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
its been 2 tiring days spending 3/4 of my time in sch.finally done with the whole funtasia thing.It was today that the event was on and my station was making play dough having a fragrant in it.we had to attend to 10 classes ,doing the same thing over and over again,getting fingers burnt because of the heating process[its only the leaders that had to go through it,not the students coming in =( ] At least the sch treated us ice cream twice and fish burger for lunch. gosh,its fattening laa but still i needed the energy for the entire day. was in sch from 7am-530pm STANDING. hardly sitting.And we had to smell the fragrant oil throughout the day,its unhealthy mann. I now see the clear line between boys and girls.No matter how rough girls can get,they never can be as nasty and michievious as boys. me,amanda,serena and fangs were kinda surprised somehow how naughty they were when we were helping the acs[b] boys.They just had to spill the flour and salt all over the table.tskk. And they were totally against acsi people.just kept complaining about them as a sch with nerds.goodness. at the end of the whole event,we were given test tube pouches' . i wanted the shoe bag please! ohwells. went home next. tired
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Friday, May 26, 2006
went with mum and dad to see my form teacher.mdm zalena actually said i could write.BUT,its just the beginning of every story of whats written.ohwells. real disppointed with my results.5th from the LAST.plus i am abloody retainee.wth.Term1 results totally suck please,pull my whole overall down.was at least satisfied to see the improvement in term2 but when i got to see my report book,i was almost in a shock state.i could have gotten a 1 for poa but because of term one's failure,i got a 4 for overall.freak please.
stayed back after it to do some planning and preparations for the math and sci funtasia. i didnt like the idea of being a leader of such stuff.it was obvious who was good at such responsibility.i cant take this role.already today,i felt so failure in getting everyone satisfied and settled.i suck.
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
its the last day of sch but i dont feel like it is somehow.the class wasnt in the mood for any lessons today. because of the music marathon audition that was needed to be presented after sch.mrs eng kept asking whats with our mood today,we all seems so dead,so quiet,so tired. yes i was,so tired.AGAIN. i was doing my poa wksheet halfway and in the midst of erasing my mistake,i fell asleep on the spot with that action in the air for a minute.How Great ehh. geog,we bargained. we said could not have lessons.actually she let us off yesterday already and we promised to listen to her for 2 full periods for today. as expected,we couldnt make it. so in the end all she wanted was 20mins of teaching and we could use her next period to go for lunch cos our lunch was taken up by clean-up. how nice please. but i got distracted by kim! she was telling me about her hot friend that used to be friends with her when she was in scgs.i think i gave her the impression that i was really interested.HAHA. the audition came,and it was a total screw up. the acoustic couldnt be heard cos we didnt manage to amp it.there were comments on the piano too and i particularly said this cos i think the comment on the piano was one i sympathize most.poor joyce! felt kind of bad for not being able to do well in the funtasia prep. seriously bad.i am really sorry people.=(
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
started off sch embarassing myself while going up class.was carrying my bag and my hands were having my file and book[notice i arent those who carry light bags], i tripped over the steps hurting my toe.but it wasnt much about the injury,its the attention i got from the sec1s while they were going down for assembly.gosh. rush down to the assembly area,people said i looked sleepy.yes i was,didnt got to sleep well for the past 2 nights.shant elaboarate.ohwells.eng periods again was free ,guess mdm zalena wasnt feeling well,5 of us could understand why.[notice its just FIVE] .HAA. she asked us to make our way to the com lab to do a research on avian flu.so whats the students temptation on getting into a com lab? go ahead wondering about the obvious possibilities.x) we still did our work OKAY. math period wasnt that bad today,maybe its because its just 1 period or i guess it was the formula stuff ms ferng was teaching.chi was dreadful,falling asleep. i THOUGHT i forgot to bring my textbook. and so she asked those who did not bring to copy 1 of the stories in the book.it was freaking long.had to stayed back to finish it up.just before leaving i realised my book was under my table hidden all along!! what the heck. kim got 4bucks from sijia for helping in completing the punishment.Lucky please. dont even have to consider about working in macs or any other places for jobs. i hoped it never made it worse.i was really missing Before so much.but it seems its becoming colder.all seemed hesitant.
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Monday, May 22, 2006
its the last week of sch, its really quick to have term2 to end so fast.gosh. the weird thing is i feel like studying whenever the exam periods are over.but the contradicting thing is i dread the lessons in my timetable.math again i cldnt take it but to slap myself awake. slaps i did to myself on and off to concentrate on what the heck ms ferng was explaining abt perfect squares[i hate that chpt,but not the formula one]. finally its harder than i could ever take ,gave one tight slap to myself,it worked but it distracted the people sitting around me.at least it did good for the people who looked so dead' too.free entertainment i call. i hope to run to the other end of the world.perserverance is what i must have.i am proving its not about it.needless to say.
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Sunday, May 21, 2006
yesterday's training i finally could call it TRAINING.i survived the byte.thank god.and i am starting to see the good stuff and not the flaws about the byte.i am appreciating it! i guess its a preferable boat for me now.yes it is. dad gave me a lift to the club and it wasnt a good at all when i entered the place.cor and val were giving a black face all the way for so long[i didnt bother how long was it,it was long enough to make me feel inferior].asked sergin what happened,she had no idea too and i guess i irritated her so much.[i am really sorry!!x( ] i was seriously wrecking my brains for what had i done to them that made them give such an expression to me,and its only to ME! i usually could be braver than this but somehow i felt so scared and afraid.i guess its because the blow i got in school.that has already made me so guilty concious about myself,and now this, i really asked myself am i really a pain in the eye for the whole day.even out at sea,i wasnt really concentrating on my upwinds,the ques just kept repeating in my freaking mind. decided not to say much.i am keeping quiet.thats it. even speaking up,i realise the lag time i have to spent in communicating with people.now that i am afraid of being such an irritant. When cor and val were giving those faces,i could tell val wasnt intentional on ignoring me.she wanted laugh laa whenever i look at her.but cor is different,SO DIFFERENT.i practically freeze whenever she walk past me,its super duper truple' scary. i felt so small,even smaller than a shrimp! after they knew i almost cried, val came over to tell me they were just playing with me. i was so frightened please!what an HOUR[i think] to have myself to suffer.
i guess its part of the meanie' club requirement to go through that test.ask val for more details. back to training,yes,we did 3 upwinds and runs.by the second and third rounds my thighs were shaking.oh yes,by the time i went back home my eyes were more tired and painful than previous trainings cos i was kind enough to loan my shades to weekee.haha. she needs it more than me anyway.=) ate jap food for dinner =DD and went home to eat apple strudel,i no need to feel fat. i AM fat.
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Monday, May 15, 2006
didnt got to sail in the end on sat training.its because of the weather. i was looking forward to it and its cos i wanted to practice the byte! now its likely i am entering the inter-sch's with that!once a week is definetly not enough,its just a couple of mths to the competition? any one could company me on a weekday to train too?i really need it.=( jeremy made us did gym training.from the hiking equipment for 3mins.the stepping thing which seemed like it was made for us to walk non-stop.i was at level6 too[same as you weekee!]now i know how tiring it can be. next went to do the different equipments that made my shoulders shivered non-stop after training.
sunday was terrible, woke up having a bad bad bad migraine.really felt like going to the hospital and ask for a jab to relieve my pain in my freaking head.it just felt like my brain was contracting non-stop.so super sorry regnan'!!made you worried so much.[happy fiddling with the words] went to grandma's house in the night since it was mother's day.i was dying next of gastric flu.cos i had improper meals.gosh. i just kept burping but the gas just wldnt come out altogether.rahh.
sch today wasnt a good start at the beginning. but ohwells.it was better i guess later in the day. i pass my math and lit! yipee! at last i got that sense of achievement.=) i am sorry to the people whom had tried raising my self -esteem but felt so fustrated cos of my stubborness towards my one way thinking.its just those times where i cant seem to find myself a way to success because i guess i still hold the saddest setback i got last year? its hard to forget.especially looking at my batch's nametag,it brings back so much. i miss bluebadge.
i dont hold the grudges,i hold the words as a reflection of my self-being. i thank you honestly for the message you have brought to me.dont worry,this isnt a humiliation message,its a message of thanks and honesty.i somehow expected such opinions,i deserved that.i felt great when i saw it.Some may think i am insane if they knew about this,but i guess i am not feeling unhappy. Its really alright for such a comment like this. Now that i am much more aware of not just myself,but the people around me too. Once again thank you.
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
dont really favour these couple of years,its been a rough ride. sad to say,it doesnt seem to end and has become part and parcel of my life.Live with it,seetoh. Was practically feeling so tired and sleepy the whole day. especially the first few periods,i was in dreamland but with my eyes open. it was math then, the graph equation was given '' 7x-xsquared=5'' did my working at the side and re wrote it as ''17x'' instead of ''7''.Gave up,and took my nalgene bottle to splash myself awake,though it was just temporary. Its the second time,the last time was during chem period.we were doing balancing equations but ended up writing people's name. I realised the handwriting was so different from my usual! So i conclude,my handwriting in lala land is much neater!!how i wish it was for real. during geog, i admitted i drooled.i seriously was tired!! havent been sleeping enough these few weeks.But amazingly i paid attention for geog in the end.It was about rivers.guess for now i am rather interested about the chpt.dont ask why.i have no idea. music presentation was okay i guess?just that the acoustic i played cldnt be heard.rahh.but the rest of the instruments were well played.Drums especially! Good job eunice! and also of course amanda[bass] and fangs[elec. guitar].Also to the singers!!eliza,kim,angeline,jasmine,adora. did i miss out any?hmm. went home next, rather weird for me though to go home earlier esp when its a day where i need not have to go to sch for the day after .heh.talked to germs for an hour on the phone in the end.practically almost the whole time she was either screaming cos of the lightning and thunder. Then the call came,ms tini told me i cldnt enter the inter-school sailing nationals.because i wasnt eligible for the A division,i was under-age.she gave me till mon to see if i still want to join the other division under byte. sighs. thats it,it isnt fulfilled.ohwells.
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Monday, May 08, 2006
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY PAULINE!!!=DDDD HAVE A GOOD YEAR AHEAD! MAY GOD BLESS YOU.
I was on time for sailing!at last. without cabbing to there using unnecessary money to go there in the quickest time.today's training was one i will rememeber perhaps for life? had another new person joining in our class.at last someone is sailing the laser with me.haha.guess he makes us feel so young after all cos i guess he is 20 ? jeremy made us sailed far out upwind[i love upwind!] and tack every 30 secs by ourselves without his whistle.my watch was giving me problems,the digits in there seemed to be fading at some angle.gosh. anyway,did that then did the run back. went through this twice.the second time ,my thighs were shaking already.how NOT fit i AM.guess the wind then we experienced once in awhile,it was about 10-12 knots i suppose.strong please!but lovely. the second time doing the run was wasted laa!!was really angry with myself.already abt 100m back to the club and i capsized.it all started with isaac capsizing.then bryan told me he capsized and he sort of laughed.the next min,it happened to me.but it wasnt a quick recovery,the daggerboard slipped out TOTALLY,now the only way was to dive under the boat to slot it in.it was tough,struggled for quite awhile in the sea,jeremy wanted to do it myself. the only thing he said was'' quickly,you are drifting towards the rocks.'' in the end,another rescue boat came to help me,the guy kept repeating to me''next time public holiday dont come out to sea.'' just kept on teasing mann.heh.he tried lifting the boat up but still it still came off whenever i tried slotting in. in the end,bryan came to help ,jeremy told me to treat him a meal.whatever man. i can conclude valencia loves taking pictures! once she saw my cam,she was ''ehh!!take picture!!'' and she poses.guess she wants to show her kids in future how ''good she looked when she was younger.OOPS.kidding.[dont be offended val!!x( ] anyway,she made a bet that if she bathes finish first,she will buy fries for us. in the end she did.thanks girl!
sch today was draggy?everyday i guess. amanda came late,at first we were thinking she's sick BUT she she wasnt.its because her parents thought it was a public holiday! so she just slept on.thats the best thing.Haha. felt so tired today and plus the itch on my sting was killing! took out my sch shoes to air the whole day in class till lunch.I DO NOT have smelly feet!x)
