Tuesday, March 27, 2007
My computer crashed AGAIN.and i forgot to backup all my documents. So dont come asking me got pictures or songs if you need them now because its ALL GONE.its damn depressing man.
I never want to go back to the clinic where that doctor tried making my arm better.He just went pressing at the arm ligaments[till i almost screamed out loud to be heard out there] and there 20bucks.The pain just got worser day by day. And i was told to stay out of physical activities for 2weeks? M-A-D.
I badly want to get in. i dont want to say "i achieve nothing".
I trust God's presence is with you right up there. Its hard to see someone so strong fighting on till another day just to wait for his one more son to be back in time. And i never knew brother would be as emotional.He cried so much more.The more i thought ,accompanied with dad's rub on my back to tell me to hold on,it makes me want to cry so much more.Take care, grandpa.
RODE;
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Tranferring of boats back. But uncle tony asked us to beat upwind all the way[i never was in his squad,so i dont exactly know how he trains his sailors]since we were early.Its super tiring.Straight away my whole calf went NUMB after. Hah.
Met eunice,div,fel and later jasmine at j8.And we just chiong into the kids section at one period of time to seiyu.I see they have serious deprived childhood eh. Especially div! HAHA. Fel was fascinated over the kid's shades.I make sure i post the pictures once i'm able to!Stupid com doesnt allow me to.
Alright.Doctor tomorrow to see my arm. Luck to me.=)
RODE;
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Yesterday's tuition did great help to today's math period.hah. the most complicating theory of trigo was simplified not in school but the power of TUITION.
Cip at pathlight after school. And the class had to do FACEPAINT.the only thing i could ever be feeling screwed about was practically screwing up their hands.janice chan got drawn on the face by the kid she was attending to. hah. Joshua, the kid i had to attend to,he drew wayy better than me.at least his star looked like one.mine was crap.
Funny incidents here and there.All within that small cosy? class. its just 2girls out of about 6-7boys?
I'm NOT copying __ to whoever thinks i am. So what if __ has everything nice.A poser out of __?NO WAY. i have my own way of getting whatever colour i am.i sail.
Joshua drew that star and fyi,a car.if you thought its a smiley or something. I really like it. =)
See that smiley on Jc's face!
XUEBS.=)
I just snapped.eunice look rather gay there.no offence!haha.
It says" MY NAME:JANICE!"
Took kim while she slept on the way back to school. i bet she's gonna whine seeing this.whoops!hah.
Tag Replies!
Hazel - Yaaa,she's super entertaining can.haha.
Glenda- Oh ,so i chose the right chocolate that means! hah. hmm alright,i will try.just needed to vent once in a while. thanks anyway!=D
RODE;
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Sigh.
Its not good/nice to be shoved.
Neither mistaken for a bad performance.
I dislike the way you comment.howbias.
sorry,i'm just being fedup for this time.
RODE;
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Finally s'pore nat. youth c'ships are over.
The one and only miserable race left today i screwed.
i still dont know whether i did an extra round.its pissing to know if its actually true.[since the ijtp girls came claiming to me i did]ugh.-you know how many boats can one lap affect.damn alot.
i heard they are calling in again. i heard.i wont get involved most probably.no i wont.
[iguess]
Braces-without-the-band, i miss you!
Tag Replies!
Valencia: its not even an insult! i wished i had as much humour as her lah. its a compliment okay.
Glenda: I shall upgrade my chocolates next time. Maybe.haha.
RODE;
Friday, March 16, 2007
RODE;
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
it went well at first.
The end,i screw.
Now,i injure.
Nevermind i'm feeling fine . =)
Some pictures for less boredom?
Victoria's .
Hazel's.
Mine.well,the sail number isnt mine.thanks eh gab tang.haha.
Cherly's.[hello sergin at the bottom right]
Sergin's.
Wen's.
RODE;
Monday, March 12, 2007
The week holiday is probably burnt out. somehow i found that taking part snyc got my priorites all screwed. oh sigh. i wouldnt worry this if my academics dont suffer.resign to it writer.
No ,i'm not saying myself stupid or anything.Just disappointed.
swimming yesterday helped.=)
Tag Replies!
Anon: Alright.
Glenda: Its okay lahh. haha. the Vday present was really nice.honest.=) mine's crappier please.
haha: Welcome!you make sure things are better yup.
shan : i will.thanks so much for the encouragement and motivation!
sweet partner: yupp. thanks alot really. although i mistreated you so much.uh-oh.
RODE;
Friday, March 09, 2007
This day.this very day.Had made me so bothered and emo.Mainly my results i guess.Leaving dad and mum in tears. I never see neither hear dad cry at all in my entire coming17years of life.He spoke a few words over the phone all the way from dubai and hung up saying his speechless and left an e-mail soon after.Mum read it with me,she almost broke down again. I too actually. There.
su-ying , received news that your recent test result is really below expectation. I feel sorry for you and think that i have not done a good job as your gaurdian. I feel ashame myself and sometimes think that i have no right to tell you to improve, because i don`t have a solution for you. The pain in me is seeing you trying so hard and still not getting to above the mark. Mummy is feeling from pain to frastration over both you children, she probably think you guy can`t be bothered with improving academic grades and wasting time on sports, blog and gaming.
I have push you and being very harsh during your young and formative primary days and trying to guide you along. Nothing positive come out of that. I think the approach was wrong and maybe you hate me for not even trying to put you into Sports School.
Why you still performing below expectation , could be your foundation is not strong and you don`t see or recognise it. Rebuilt your foundation structurally and make it strong, this need long hour and concentration. Practice makes perfect, this phrase is very relevant and true.
If you continue to perform the same and do not show a dramatic upturn in your result you will be drop-out and the remaining avenue is to pick up a trade skill in the Vocational Institute and percentage of this rung of people becoming successful is very very small.
I hope you think carefully over the path you want to take and make no mistake. Should try hard and align yourself to reach N level.....O level.... Poly...Uni...Career...Family&Children... God Bless You.
Draw up a study plan yourself and be truthful about it. Study group is good but ask your any effective result come out of it, you should be studying with people who you can get along and stronger than you and not with people you like and can spend the time with.
I will be waiting to see you Study Plan . Email to me.
Daddy love you '
I replied,and i guess i really shared almost everything i honestly felt right deep in there.Maybe its still best sharing stuff with your parents no matter what. They are like lifelong friends.
Before all that,i suppose the swim i went for helped quite alot in clearing my mind.
2 sets of 4x100 of pulling kept me mentally better. The venting i held especially.
i dont know how much i swam today but it was enough to make me feel slightly better i guess.
I think i talk alot here this time. i shall end.
And bestfriend, i didnt forget you. i'm really sorry for not being there when you needed someone most.it seemed it didnt care but not true. I sincerely hope you are feeling better now. Tell me things ,whatever it is,i'm here to listen.
RODE;
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Go muscles ache more. I enjoy.=) Dont 'siao' me if you think its crazy.i dont allow.hah.
2.4km run i ran extra round.okay more caloriesss lostt.yay.
The new timetable i dont like.they extended mondays even taxing and longer. 2double period of both sciences almost consecutively with just a short break in between. And extending till 440 let alone for lessons.madness.
Shan came over.we did work on the floor[my table is too cramp]. math and geog.
Along with picturess.Hahaa.
i tried smiling properly.i tried.
Aim.. Aim..
chinss.
RODE;
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Today's mass run was super minimal.hahh.And its because the sec4s were being good students to jog as a class.=) compare to day1 when we ran which was 10rounds around the track to just 3andhalf rounds today?wow.
Watched 'stand by me' during english. I dont mind watching it with many rewinds and forwards just to catch well their swear words. Super cool. Although i know i shouldnt be concentrating on those but the summary of the show. But you know, its so fascinating.
the video during chapel ,i felt i was in primary school.
the video during chinese, i felt the acting of that particular chapter the characters playing in there were super stiff. i bet i can act better.well,okay anyone else can do better actually.
Geog lesson, i slept while sitting up.i almost resorted back to doing pushups at the side again to wake up.No one exactly knew i did before actually behind the class.
This is NOT a note or whatever to say i'm being overly ambitious or fit.mind you ah.
She was just being another lian again.i dont know how many she posed for in mine.Not just today btw.
smile.shock.constipate.
say "AHHH" janice.
she insisted.
Actually there is still somemore. But someday you have to learn not to be too longwinded not just verbally but pictorial-ly? too. Its a stupid logic i made but i dont care,it sounds logically LOGICAL to me.
Tag Replies:
Jess: Ehhh,doesnt mean IF i ever have,you dont have. So dont anyhow say too!!!
Kim: Aww.ahyah,i think even if i do go really deaf,i will still be able to hear your high-pitched voice from afar man.
Anon: Er okay. though i never would figure out.thanks.
Kee: No not EGG! Later i press too hard then CRACK then there comes YOLK flowing.
RODE;
Monday, March 05, 2007
i'm lazy to blog. so i wont pen much. i'm just bothered with the hard knock i got at the back of my head.the right ear cant really hear.
Tag Replies!
Fred: i know iknow.but i wont change it .haha.
Carina:oh yes! nice to see you too! Good run and swim!=)
Hazel:Thats why .
Anon.: Who are you?
RODE;
Joshua drew that star and fyi,a car.if you thought its a smiley or something. I really like it. =)
See that smiley on Jc's face!
XUEBS.=)
It says" MY NAME:JANICE!"
Took kim while she slept on the way back to school. i bet she's gonna whine seeing this.whoops!hah. 
Victoria wanted to be tall for this once.GRANTED.
Sibling love eh.
They were talking about..ahyah,some girl there.[kimberly just had to do that]
I will treat you anything if you could beat her retardness.
Jiaolian! its annoying to not see my phone able to save the picture our squad took with him just now!rah.
Depress?Want to rant or vent? be like them. Throw rocks.
Those naughty optimist kids went hijacking' the dragonboat.
We were bored you see.
I guess she cant be bothered hiding away from the cam anymore.
Check out how sergin's cpr tramautised kim.
Welcome to singapore!=)
Look real does it?
Lizard scare.
See it?
No races= the guys raided the kayaks there and went out.
Victoria's .
Hazel's.
Mine.well,the sail number isnt mine.thanks eh gab tang.haha.
Cherly's.[hello sergin at the bottom right]
Sergin's.
Wen's.
i tried smiling properly.i tried.
Aim.. Aim..
chinss.
She was just being another lian again.i dont know how many she posed for in mine.Not just today btw.
smile.shock.constipate.
say "AHHH" janice.
she insisted.